I'd like to get off now. I can feel myself on the verge of a crying melt-down. Why does life have to always be so friggin intense?? Just when it seems like it is letting up a little it's almost as if you get hit double time. I'm trying not to put too much stock in the future... As in 'in 2 years it'll all be better' but it will be better!! I am finding moments to enjoy and take comfort in, fleeting as they may seem. I am overall pretty "happy" in general so I don't really feel like I'm putting all my eggs in the "in 2 years" basket, but still! Ugh. I realized on my way home tonight I don't even know what I look like anymore! Physically and mentally. I have no idea how I'm coming off, if I make any sort of sense, etc.
I'm glad that I tend to go into new ventures with a pretty open mind/blank state approach. I knew grad school would be different. I did not know how different. Nevermind all the craziness with the economy and whatnot. That is for sure not helping my stress levels. I'm thinking that even by next September I should be much more mellow than I am now. Not saying I'll be completely mellow, but by then I'll know what I'm dealing with as far as money for school and living, etc.
Okay I'm going back to my knitting. I'll find some solace in that, even for just a moment or two.
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