Day 2.... *Sigh*

Okay so day 2 started out just fine. I had my foods planned out, my exercise time planned out, hooray! 'Round about 1:30 some plans got changed. I was suppose to be babysitting at 6, but Mom called and asked if I could come at 5 and take the precious tot out to dinner so they could get stuff done around the apartment (they are making a biiiig move). Of course she wanted me to take him to this diner that had his most favoritest french fries...

For me the hardest part of this getting fit thing is limiting what I'm eating and so forth. And it's not any huge reason where I have a weird relationship with food or anything like that. I think it is simply that I'm being "told" that I can't eat what I want when I want, even if it's in moderation. I miss my random snacking!! But if I want to lose weight, right, I have to cut some calories out. Is it bad that I can't wait until I lose it so I can go back to a higher calorie diet?! lol. I'll be going back into maintenance mode which means back up to a regular 2,000 ish calorie diet. Which is probably about what I maintain when I'm not being distracted by life changes and whatnot. Yea, so now that I can't have all the food I want, I want it. How old am I?! Sheesh.

Now I am obsessed with food. I think about it all the time and consequently the last two days have drank obscene amounts of water (for me anyway). I've managed to polish off the big Sigg water bottle between breakfast and lunch. Then I think I get another round in for the rest of the day. I know it's still falling short on how much I should be drinking daily, but like I said, big improvement for me. I've had an almond butter and jelly sandwich the past two days for lunch and let me tell you, I have never made a sandwich last so long in my life!! I take small bites, put it all the way down on my plate and let it go, chew slowly, pick it back up and repeat. Who knew?! It's making me realize how insanely fast I can inhale my food and barely even taste it! I served out portion sizes to myself for dinner last night... wow! And the thing is, I ate slowly and felt satisfied after. Of course I could've eaten more because I'm so used to eating more. It'll be nice when my stomach readjusts itself to my new...diet.... I use that word reluctantly because of the connotations it conjures up. By diet I mean the way that I am eating not as in I'm only eating green things, etc. When I reach my goal weight I'm not going to immediately go back to having 3 serving sized dinners and whatnot. No, I will carry all this stuff I'm learning about healthy eating with me. I'll still take into account calories, but not obsessively so. I don't have time for that. I'll just incorporate it into the routine and let it be. If I want a beer I'll have a beer. I allow myself to splurge because I do it in moderation.

Well anyway. I was able to get home and get in my exercise routine before having to head back out for the night time gig. Good thing. I've justified eating 1/2 a pastrami sub, a handful of french fries and 3/4 of a small cantaloupe sorbet b/c it was kind of like a last date. It was a special occasion. It was my last solo outing with this ridiculously adorable, funny little man (I'm sitting for him in the morning, but w/ a friend of his as well). So it was touch and go with the food thing tonight, but other than that Day 2 was fine. I made the most of the walk to and from the diner (about 1 mile each way), then I was lifting and carrying heavy things (I got some cool "new" things) to my car. I broke a sweat, but that may have been a little to do with the humidity, the lifting too! Don't get me wrong...

It's interesting having this raised awareness about my physical health and the foods that I'm eating. This is good though because I've been trying to eat better for a long time. This forces me to make sure to have fruits and vegetables all the time!

Okay I'm off to drink more water and wait out this desire to be continuously eating (mind you I'm not even particularly hungry).